Thursday, May 1, 2014

My style and what it means to me

I have never mentioned the things that inspire me,or what style is to me. Tbh I don't feel like explaining my style or the way I am...But I'll force myself to make a start today...

First of all, I don't like fashion. I hear people all the time saying "ohh that's in fashion"..Yeah, is that good? To me the way I dress is not just a layer on top of me, it's not a necessity to protect me, it's not a way to be noticeable or to be acceptable. It's an extension of myself, of my feelings. And yes it is really important to me. Actually the last 6 years (or even more but I didn't have the means/ time /money back then) it is my only way of expressing myself.
The clothes I wear every day, the things I decide to put on me are not ornaments. They are part of a bigger picture and that is my mood. It is a way of "emotional mapping", of registering my mood at that particular moment.
Other times I use them as a trick, to change my emotions. I suffer from depression and even though I don't want to talk about this here, it is important in decoding my style language.
There are times I try to cheer myself up by surrounding me with all these things I love. My pastel hair makes me really happy and I have noticed that I usually want weird colours on my hair when I'm not feeling well inside.








On the other hand, there are these times that my bad mood takes over, making me crave darker colours, things that are associated with death or pain.




There is a constant feeling of loneliness and sadness in me, which exists even when I'm having a good time and when I'm "happy". So my style usually is a mix of cute and creepy things. There are some people who I guess feel the same way or at least dress this way.
One of them is Eva Cheung. I like 99.9% of the things she wears. Also my hair atm is inspired by hers, as pink blue and purple are my fave colours and she uses them in a unique way.


Anyway, these are a few things about my style, it is way too personal I guess..






Diary_ and a little bit creepy...


❤camouflage tshirt
❤black fishnet top
❤high waist denim shorts
❤knee high socks
❤hologram shoes
❤spider earrings
❤trick or treat bag
❤vintage denim jacket
❤monster high tattoos



























I added a bit more purple to my hair yesterday...
 























I don't even know what to do with my nails..I guess I'm still a bit depressed, so my nails are bleeding
 
 













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